so what do i want to say to you today? what do i want to write? sometimes my heart is so full and my head so busy that it’s hard for me to distill. and so i sit here and let the words flow freely, not knowing what will come out. of me. wanting to not overthink, but rather to feel my way through this. we’ve been busy lately. and i imagine you have too. yesterday was the first day in a while that i felt like i could take deep breaths. let the air fill my body. and then let it out. slowly. the kids felt different to me too. they didn’t bicker with each other even once yesterday. in between schoolwork assignments, they played together nicely. like really nicely. and i could take those deep breaths. i could read to the kids and answer questions and make meals. and then i could exhale fully. i sat with my own thoughts a bit, my own words. and it was good. so this is where i end up. breathing. deeply and fully. feeling a sweet relief from the past couple weeks as we settled into new school routines and spent two weekends in a row out of town. this is where i end up. feeling my way into this new week with freshness and an open heart. today’s going to be busy. and tomorrow too. but the breaths are flowing. and i know i’ve got this.
to have faith is to trust yourself to the water. when you swim you don’t grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. instead you relax, and float. ~ alan watts
wishing you days of floating, my friends…
sending a little love your way, m