Sometimes when I declare something (out loud) it leaves me feeling frozen, shaky, vulnerable. If you receive my monthly letters, or if you follow me on Instagram, you already know that I’ve shared (out loud) my intention to write a book. What the what? Yes, it’s true.
I have ideas and photos to sift through, and new ones keep coming. I am dancing somewhere between inspiration and overwhelm. Though dancing is perhaps a bit generous. It’s more like tiptoeing. I tiptoe a few steps, then freeze in my tracks. What am I doing? Who do I think I am? Look at what so-and-so is doing/can do/has done. I am frozen. Shaky. Vulnerable.
In The War of Art, Steven Pressfield writes:
Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do.
Remember our rule of thumb: The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.
Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance. Therefore the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that that enterprise is important to us and to the growth of our soul. That’s why we feel so much Resistance. If it meant nothing to us, there’d be no Resistance.
So, be assured, that this book is important to me, because I feel major resistance. I can’t wait to share it with you some day (the book, not the resistance). Recently, I had the honor and pleasure to talk with Christine Mason Miller about the beginnings of my book on her podcast, The Conscious Booksmith Podcast. If you fancy a listen, you can find that interview on SoundCloud and iTunes.
My book will be a reflection of the little, of the showing up, of the practice of it all…things we talk about here. I believe in this practice so much. Whatever fills your day today, I wish you strength in the doing. Whether it’s writing a page of a book or washing the breakfast dishes, voicing an opinion at work or knitting three rows. Show up and do your work. Value your voice and value your being. What you say and do matters. How you say and do it matters too. Watch for resistance and let it be your ally. Let it lead you to a truer you today, right now.
Tiptoe or dance full-on. Do the doing. I’m with you.
sending a little love, m